In life there are many moments that just happen like the changing seasons, some are warm some are cold, and some are like the falling leaves off from the trees, and some beautiful like the glowing flowers. How many moments can a mind store well countless, But I remind myself of those 10 women I have been with, those ten moments in every one of those moments I felt the seasons of a year, a diversion in my life some lessons learnt well, some taught some now are friends and some gone far not sure where…
The journey begins when I was in High school, every one of my friends talking about girls and every one was like check that chick out, and sitting in a corner and thinking of whats happening around and paying very close attention to every action my mates were making, mean while I was made a joke out of my this action of noticing what my mates were doing some were like Gurus ( teachers ) like they knew everything, but the fact was clear we were all of the same age maybe some were little to smart and some were little less smart, but every one was thinking of wanting the Hottest chick in the High school, well I could not get the trophy in my high school years, well right after I finished high school, I shared this issue with my Uncle, and well he made a contact for me with one of his friends friend, well my Uncle was kinda very play boy type of guy, I thought he be the best person to reach at that point of my life, so I got hang out with a girl, the very first girl in my Life, it was like 9 years ago, I wont mention any names here…
It was quiet a wired relation, the reason it was wired it was because we only talked on phone and text messages, and I was quiet frustrated of the situation because we were stuck like in the middle of a bridge and the bridge was shaking heavily and everything was just so abnormal, but least bothered was I, so one day I got a chance and she called me and told me she is thinking of meeting me, and I was like in heavens my very first date, and well the next day I was waiting for her outside her college and she showed up like 2 hours after, my fault i was too excited so I went before time, so we met and she got me a purse (Wallet) and the worst part was I never saw her face she was wearing a (ABBAYA) a traditional dress in which women hid there face.she had beautiful dark brown eyes, the only thing I remember about her are her eyes. She was a good person all I can say about her was she was like the unwanted change in a season, like its hot and suddenly from no where it starts raining.
Now this one was quiet a date, I mean how can some one only be in relation for only two days, this is how it begins, I met this girl in a church and I looked at her she was tall, pink skin, big brown eyes, very beautiful and light brown hair, beauty itself was she.
Accidentally I went into the Church library she was there with her aunt and her aunt left the library and she was there and was about to leave the library, and I was sitting watching here leave, but from no where I just started running towards and grabbed her arm and asked her to stop, and she was scared like I was some kind of a murderer as I stared into her eyes every moment stopped and I felt like time was on a pause, it was good. I asked her If I could know her name, I actually knew her name, now things were happening itself I felt like I was trapped in a coffin, and my soul was doing all the work here, so I got her number.
One day I just woke up and received a call from an unknown number, on attending the call she spoke and asked If I could come over to her house, I said yes, time and date please like a gentleman, huh, what a story, anyways, few days after I went to her house, and when I was in the living room sitting with her aunt and cousin now I had to spend the next 1 hour listening to what they were telling me, and I asked where is the lady, well I was told that is scared to meet me, I mean scared ” am not here to get married or its not my first honey moon night” so I went to her room and asked if she could come to the living room, so she came we spent like 30mins just staring at each other and I was scared, well some how I managed to come close to her and her aunt and cousin were sitting and I kissed her, and said I like you, and would want to know you more, and I left she was smiling and her skin was so cold and I tell you I saw the flower bloom right on her cheeks, it was beautiful, well just because I kissed her in front of her family , her family got so offended that I could never talk to her every again, I tried my hardest efforts to meet her, I mean I could dream of her for months. but we never met again, a lesson learnt you never kiss a girl in Pakistan when shes with her family. She was like the garden where flowers only bloom and glow like they are immortals.
Some people just come like the thunder and disappear like the smoke in the air, so was she adorable and beautiful, dark skin, tall, beautiful dark black hair reaching her hips, as she walked the hairs were the beauty mark of this beauty, she was like the mountain top with no snow dark as the top of the mountain, such sharp facial expressions, I saw her as I was in my village, and there was she, I could smell the barley off her clothes, I had 7 days of my life spent with her but those 7 days of my life were breath taking, I never Kissed her the only thing we had was a hug and holding hands and talking like birds flying so high in the air, and when I left she had such big tears in her eyes that was the first time I ever cried like I was in love, but we had to depart, I had to go, I wished I could spend the rest of my life the dark shades of her beauty. She was like the Autumn, and the only thing I left with was the leaves of memories I had with her.
Went to the army and came back home after a year, and went to another City because I was not getting attached with anyone at home so much anger so much depression, I was completely wrecked inside out. On arriving into this new city every thing was new, made great new friends, and Then in these new friends I met this Girl, when I first saw her I thought she was some kind of a fashion model, words would be less If I describe her, she was sharp, bold, like a Hot tennis player she looked, Well I wont spend much time is describing of telling what we had or what went, because Its way to painful for me even to write.
The only thing I can tell is I spent 3 hours walking covering 25 KM of distance just to see her. It was something I dared doing for her, and rest I never knew where shes now, a few months ago I received a call from a friend that “She” asked how was I and how I am holding up these days. It gave me joy that all she went through, she is happy and healthy as she was before. She was like the falling leaves of Cherry, like a snow fall of leaves.
Some days your low and some angel comes sitting next to you and starts talking to you as the person knows you like for ages, She was like that, and un-invited guest into my life, but she changed so much into my life, taught me who I am what I am able to do, thrilled me to go for the Vision I have, I had the most beautiful memories with her than any one I have ever know, But then there was time when I had to leave and go back where I came from, But I still remember her face, her joy her delights, the way we kissed, the way we had time together, she cooked food for me, and well she was a great person, now She is living in Dubai with her family. many years past we never had a conversation. A blessing for the barren desert where its all dry and it rains and quenches the thirst like was she.
Time flies by and you don’t even know where you will be the next moment or the next day, so I was in Thailand, and was in a college studying. after all these years of studying and research in mental states of Humans, now I was in a complete different dimension, a culture I was least aware about, very less I knew, and then here comes She, the first Girl I ever thought of getting married and having kids with in Thailand, She was a young 20 years old Thai girl, and I was 22 years of age at the time, well we first met on the Halloween night from my child hood I was very fascinated how to play with words and to form them into beautiful poems so I was a part of play and multi tasked my mind found a pen and started writing a poem for her, well I wrote a beautiful poem and at the end of the poem I wrote my number with this note ” If its beautiful do let me know” now how smart that move was I came to know on the next Sunday service at the Church, as her mom reached me and told me quiet a nice poem it was, and I was like did I write it for the mom or for the Girl, well she came to me and apologized for the matter happened, what could I have said other than ” oh no problem I am good”, so one late night some one called me, and I woke up picked up the phone, and what a surprise it was her, and then we talked for like 3 months, looked at each other every Sunday service, now you would be think why we never went out on a date reason was simple I was in my 1st year and according to the college rules I cannot go out on a date. and for some reason her mom thought that Pakistan was a terrorist country and if her daughter got married to me, she would get killed by Al Qaeda, now that was no joke this actually became a threat and we never talked after, because some issues stood up, gossips, poor she was blamed and I was told not to talk to her again or else I be kicked out of the college, so we never talked again. She was sweet like the strawberries.
In the same first year we went to the Northern part of Thailand, We had a base camp, and it was my first hiking trip ever, Me and my mates had prepared ourselves very well, we did exercises every morning, and I was in the Army in the past so was’t to hard for me, so the trip begins, as days passed one hot day everyone was resting at the camp and few mates were playing around, I saw couple of villagers setting up the new church building floor, so I went and started helping, and as I was helping them all people of the village that were there were so pleased to see me help them, I was a Huge muscular guy, picking up big bags of mud, and working like a machine, and from no where comes this Girl, slim and very strong, she was wearing a big thai Hat, barely could see her face, and she went I filled a couple of baskets of sand for her, but my friends that were thai came to me and told me yo mate the chick is checking on you, I was like yea yea what ever. moving forward a few days after we came back from the hiking we were packing our stuff and the village people came to us, and started saying good bye to us, now the girl I was filling baskets for came to me and we talked I had her e-mail address and her phone number and she asked me to call her when I reach back to my college, so I did, and since then we talked for almost 4weeks, and very long phone calls, Simon living next door always listened to my calls and made joke of me, and we both laughed, but then it was time to go back home, and I had 3 weeks more to stay in Thailand, I had a few thousand Thai currency left in my wallet, so I decided to go visit her all the way to Chang-Mai, and the plan was to return in 32 hours. I did’t wanted anyone to know I was gone all by myself. So I went, traveled all the way to Bangkok and then took an bus and went all the way to Chang-Mai and it was a 12 hours journey, and I arrived there like 3am in the morning and I was tiered no where to rest my bum, and it was a foreign country people could barely speak English, well I spent 5 hours sitting on a bench and not falling a sleep and waiting for Her, so She came and we went to a restaurant had breakfast together, then Starbucks had coffee, talked, and then decided to visit the Mall, I don’t remember the name but it was massive, we went to watch movie, and worst part was the movie was in thai… So we had a great time, as it was time for me to travel again we were sitting at the bus station holding hands, and she Said she like me and feels love for me, and so was I in the same condition I was tiered and very low, I did’t wanted to go back, just wanted to disappear in the mountains with her have kids, and spend the rest of my life with her in the Jungles of Thailand, but I had a commitment made with my College so I had to go back to Pakistan, so I went back and she kissed me a long warm Hug with tears. I came back home and told my mom I like her and think of getting married to her, but my mom disagreed but who said I give up, I kept on talking to her and she talked to her parents so did they disagreed same old stupidity ” what if our daughter gets killed in Pakistan” anyways after that we couldn’t talk much, and distances started to become bigger and bigger and we are now just friends. She was like the sunshine in the winter like the hope for the summer after the winter nights.
Not much I want to write about this one its not I hate writing about it, We were friends, got in relation, engaged, and broke up, she and I were in the longest relation of my life more than 1 and a half year we were in relation.
She had the most beautiful eyes and hair, I still remember her every moment passing reminds me of her. If there was a season that couldn’t be described it be her to be described with, Fragile and Beautiful.
No-Comments it was like the season when I felt cold in winter and Warm in summer, it was just something I could never explain.
Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.
She Changed my life to what I am today, She was Complete in every aspect, like she was the four seasons of a year. Beauty like the angels of the heavens, everything so perfect. She was My angel.
These are the 10 women and 10 memories I could never forget, not sure about the past, but they were the building blocks of what I am today, to what I will be for the One I will be spending my life with, Its a Tribute to these wonderful women I have been with. and all these women I have been with never attempted to Have sex with.
Why I wrote this is out of the question box, but Its surely is a reminder that Behind Every Successful Man there is a hand of a Lady.
I remember you and will remind myself of you in the phases of my life where I am least sure what to do now.